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Our journey has been three years long, Also thought of as 36 cycles During which, we’ve had three losses We’ve had four separate doctors Six disappointing ultrasounds And zero diagnosis or possible reasons why I’ve lost count of the blood tests, pregnancy tests, ovulation tests But I have also lost count of the prayers, theContinue reading “The Numbers Game”

“With every breath that I am able, I will sing of the goodness of God” This year has been a difficult one for us in many ways, and as my dad’s birthday approaches, my heart has felt a heavy weight of having lived one whole year without hearing his voice. It’s hard to believe it’sContinue reading “The Goodness of God”

The past few months have been a blessing. After all the losses, and the painful desire for a family, the past few months were intentionally for rest. Back in July, we had decided to try to start the process for IVF around November. If you have never struggled to have children then you may notContinue reading “Ready…Set…Pray”

“Never” is a powerful word. I never really thought about it. Bad news can feel very different when it’s only temporary, but “Never” is pretty absolute. I have used “never” as an exaggeration just about as many times as I have claimed to be starving when I am hungry. I have used “never” in argumentsContinue reading “Never Say Never”

Psalms 105:1 “Give praise to the Lord, proclaim his name; make known among the nations what he has done.” Sometimes it’s not easy to wait patiently and joyfully when things aren’t going the way we want them to. This year has been tough on me, and at times it feels like I haven’t received goodContinue reading “Giving Praise”

During my last pregnancy, I read and reread the book of 1 Samuel. I always held onto the story of Hannah for obvious reasons. She wanted a child so badly, and God heard her prayers and answered them. 1 Samuel 1:20 says, “So in the course of time Hannah became pregnant and gave birth toContinue reading “Scripture Speaks”

After a few years of frustration, we were finally seeing a specialist. This was going to give us all the answers, and help us finally start our family. I think we were both in denial of anything serious being wrong. Or maybe it is better to say that we trusted in God’s plan, but thoughtContinue reading “The Evaluation”